HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013!!:)
Will make a fast one, its past the skin rejuvenation hour. Not that I'm being a pissy ass sissy for my skin but recent outbreak is like making me more conscious x.x
HAD an awesome day just now at Wendy house, Thanks so much for lending us your house! This year's end of year countdown was very much a reminder for me. Let me explain, beginning when I was planning with her the outing, I knew things were not gonna be like a bed of roses. Many would have plans and it was already pretty last minute, nevertheless we went ahead and we ended up with Wendy Andrew and Me as well as Keith and Evelyn :)
Sounds pretty sucky and boring and lacking in atmosphere eh? Don't worry I'm pretty sure that was in the back of our heads as well. However, after the whole pumpkin prawn thing, the udders ice cream and the mini gathering at Wendy's house. I would say though we might not be doing the coolest shit or having the most happening party but it sure was DAMN filled with laughter and noise and fun. Every single minute I enjoyed, truly. :)
Its such a reminder to myself, simplicity is really such a beautiful work of its own. The quality and chemistry we all have is already more than sufficient.:) The fact we can still meet is already amazing itself. Never EVER FORGET to be thankful for what we already have,cause more does not necessarily mean more happiness. Here is Cheers to a wonderful 2013!!:)
Monday, 31 December 2012
Sunday, 30 December 2012
patience maybe
Remember when we were such fools And so convinced and just too cool Oh no No no I wish I could touch you again I wish I could still call you friend I'd give anything chorus When someone said count your blessings now For they're long gone I guess I just didn't know how I was all wrong They knew better Still you said forever And ever Who knew
Just learnt this song on guitar, a really beautiful song Pink- WHO KNEW. Talks about this girl patience waiting for a guy for three years but apparently (pardon me if I'm wrong) he did not come back.
Patience is it something we are wired or born to have, or is it a virtue that we need to grow and learn over the years?
Thoughts like waiting for the guy/girl for three more years, worth it? maybe he will treat me better?Maybe he/she will mature towards the way I want? Maybe I should move on there's too much risk in waiting and wasting my youth? People would probably think that wouldn't they? Of course you could say I'm overgeneralizing, but I'm sure these thoughts pops up in majority of the brains on earth eh?:)
Maybe patience is like planting an apple tree, definitely you can never know the apples you grow are going to be sweet or not after they ripen. Fruits of labour from waiting, is just such a gamble, so much uncertainties and possibilities of losing out.
Maybe patience is a test of one's selfishness, how patient you are could be is inversely proportional to how selfish a person could be. But at the same time, how much you love one person, could be how patient you are towards them, isn't that unselfishness as well. A fine example would be parents, I keep telling myself do not shout f up or flare up, though these times it always fails, their patience has always been there for me. I'm grateful for that but unfortunately, It is taken for granted ><
Maybe patience isn't something that can be learned from watching , observing or reading.
Maybe its something we have to experience losing, in order to gain more back. Like a balloon, in order for it to grow bigger air needs to be inhaled form the mouth. Don't be afraid to lose patience, it could after all be a blessing in disguise.I;m kinda proud to say my patience has increased over the years, but definitely more can be done, hopefully my balloon of patience will be able to give me the strength to be better.
Heard this quote from somewhere:' The simple key to success in a relationship: is when either one side has more patience and perseverance than the other.' So hold on tight , cause you never know that your patience could just be that little bit higher to pull you through :) <-------(a note to self as well)
Friday, 28 December 2012
when two lonely people gets together it just doubles the loneliness
Back to blogging, hahas its been awhile last week had a pretty good workout routine but this week was kinda off course, life has TOO many distractions!! working hard to get the excuses to f off from my brain.
Working out getting a good body has always been a goal of mine, but somehow maybe I am too engrossed or too into it, I have this feeling that maybe the goal I am looking at is not what i really want. Do you have this feeling yourself?YES you, do you? The feeling like your on your road to reaching that goal but halfway you go like 'do i really want this?'Its not that I am giving up halfway, but somehow i feel i have a higher priority than just getting some rip-ass body. I am definitely going to continue trying to get in shape, but right now really, more awaits me to do.
To be the perfect man, maybe I have forgotten about improving my inner-self rather then my physical body. Which male does not want to be the perfect man, inside out? Perhaps in reality, perfect as good as 'why bother saying it'. But there is no harm striving for it as well, i mean failing and striving and succeeding is all part of life right.
wellll...,list of shit I need to work on
1: Be less judging accept people for who they are.
2: Learn to be more truthful all the more with yourself.
3: Be more independent and let others depend on you more.
4: Be more mature at times.
5: Be more discipline, stop being such a flirt in relationships..grow some roots boy.
(keep telling myself don't lonely then go desperate, 'when two lonely person gets together it just doubles the loneliness', have to learn xin dong and gan dong means different things.)
I remember meeting up with my god ma that time, a person i respect and love. She told me there are two type of person one that thinks just for the moment and one that thinks too much in advance. She says how I am living is stuck in the middle of these two types, kinda like a half-half? I kinda agree with her, sometimes because maybe i lack discipline, I become sort of selfish and just live for the moment but at times fuck, I JUST think like how I am gonna be dependable for my close-kins and family and friends.
At the end of the day, I just keep telling myself everyday have faith and not fear, take steps one step at the time, do not always try to view the whole staircase, and if i do, be prepared to see failure in front. God knows where the hell I am heading too, hopefully one day when i reach my goal, I can look back on these bruises and smile at them, remembering how they molded me. But till then i promise to remind myself of importance of inner self and everyday i will fight to be a better man. good night:)
Working out getting a good body has always been a goal of mine, but somehow maybe I am too engrossed or too into it, I have this feeling that maybe the goal I am looking at is not what i really want. Do you have this feeling yourself?YES you, do you? The feeling like your on your road to reaching that goal but halfway you go like 'do i really want this?'Its not that I am giving up halfway, but somehow i feel i have a higher priority than just getting some rip-ass body. I am definitely going to continue trying to get in shape, but right now really, more awaits me to do.
To be the perfect man, maybe I have forgotten about improving my inner-self rather then my physical body. Which male does not want to be the perfect man, inside out? Perhaps in reality, perfect as good as 'why bother saying it'. But there is no harm striving for it as well, i mean failing and striving and succeeding is all part of life right.
wellll...,list of shit I need to work on
1: Be less judging accept people for who they are.
2: Learn to be more truthful all the more with yourself.
3: Be more independent and let others depend on you more.
4: Be more mature at times.
5: Be more discipline, stop being such a flirt in relationships..grow some roots boy.
(keep telling myself don't lonely then go desperate, 'when two lonely person gets together it just doubles the loneliness', have to learn xin dong and gan dong means different things.)
I remember meeting up with my god ma that time, a person i respect and love. She told me there are two type of person one that thinks just for the moment and one that thinks too much in advance. She says how I am living is stuck in the middle of these two types, kinda like a half-half? I kinda agree with her, sometimes because maybe i lack discipline, I become sort of selfish and just live for the moment but at times fuck, I JUST think like how I am gonna be dependable for my close-kins and family and friends.
At the end of the day, I just keep telling myself everyday have faith and not fear, take steps one step at the time, do not always try to view the whole staircase, and if i do, be prepared to see failure in front. God knows where the hell I am heading too, hopefully one day when i reach my goal, I can look back on these bruises and smile at them, remembering how they molded me. But till then i promise to remind myself of importance of inner self and everyday i will fight to be a better man. good night:)
Saturday, 22 December 2012
love each other just abit more please?:)
HEY been awhile since i posted, life in army is LIKE SHIT. hahas gaurduty on xmas eve and ops on xmas WTF.. people really believe in santa claus sia :\ hahahs been a really good boy this year ya noe :) anw yeah new people moved into the bunk, pretty happy for some apparent reason, guess the bunk is gonna be livelier now xD but maybe it might work the other way round hahas we shall see :)
These weeks, I'm still obsessed with getting my abs.. training for quite sometime hahas but FUG... its taking too long, but im glad what i took home from these weeks of training is ' always be prepared to fail '(in my case looking in the mirror w/o much change) but with faith one shall conquer :)
apparantly watashiwa GEI KIANG decided to do cardio skipping rope for 1.8k from 1.5k times skipping ok plus minus ya?:) hahas i ended up spraining my sole cause the impact i guess at the 1.7k mark? In the end some call it a blessing in disguise as i was excused from the 24men pg, i told my spec just put me reserve for the parade but he told me no point, which i kinda agree(maybe i was being lazy) but yeah i was excused :)
OF COURSE people will judge chao keng all these, to me though my conscience is clear,I don't blame them, in their hot shoes and suffering in the parade i would judge them too saying aiyar 'chaokeng'. Furthermore, manpower was really lacking that day. I could have come out with a better excuse but yeah i believe if shit happens just say the shit as it is no point adding flower on top of that shit right?Maybe humans were wired to judge and be selfish,of course we aint that bad, selfishness can be derived from actions of love we are capable of loving one another,just not everyone :p But the golden rule of living is ;how you want to be treated , you treat equally others as well'
AND leads me to the topic :NOW thanks to higher ups really now our platoon as to stay in if they were to report sick?? wouldnt that be freaking discouraging people to report sick, if chao keng could be so easily resolved like this, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN USED. You have the power to do up this stupid scheme, but if people because of this refuse to report sick.. wouldnt they just toh(faint) even worse cause death.. then would you as a commander be ABLE TO ANSWER TO HIS MOM HIS DAD?would you be able to repay the 20 years of pain and hardship they went through to bring up their child? ESPECIALLY THEIR LOVE FOR THEIR CHILD?? yeah think about that you #^%#!@$%!!
These weeks, I'm still obsessed with getting my abs.. training for quite sometime hahas but FUG... its taking too long, but im glad what i took home from these weeks of training is ' always be prepared to fail '(in my case looking in the mirror w/o much change) but with faith one shall conquer :)
apparantly watashiwa GEI KIANG decided to do cardio skipping rope for 1.8k from 1.5k times skipping ok plus minus ya?:) hahas i ended up spraining my sole cause the impact i guess at the 1.7k mark? In the end some call it a blessing in disguise as i was excused from the 24men pg, i told my spec just put me reserve for the parade but he told me no point, which i kinda agree(maybe i was being lazy) but yeah i was excused :)
OF COURSE people will judge chao keng all these, to me though my conscience is clear,I don't blame them, in their hot shoes and suffering in the parade i would judge them too saying aiyar 'chaokeng'. Furthermore, manpower was really lacking that day. I could have come out with a better excuse but yeah i believe if shit happens just say the shit as it is no point adding flower on top of that shit right?Maybe humans were wired to judge and be selfish,of course we aint that bad, selfishness can be derived from actions of love we are capable of loving one another,just not everyone :p But the golden rule of living is ;how you want to be treated , you treat equally others as well'
AND leads me to the topic :NOW thanks to higher ups really now our platoon as to stay in if they were to report sick?? wouldnt that be freaking discouraging people to report sick, if chao keng could be so easily resolved like this, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN USED. You have the power to do up this stupid scheme, but if people because of this refuse to report sick.. wouldnt they just toh(faint) even worse cause death.. then would you as a commander be ABLE TO ANSWER TO HIS MOM HIS DAD?would you be able to repay the 20 years of pain and hardship they went through to bring up their child? ESPECIALLY THEIR LOVE FOR THEIR CHILD?? yeah think about that you #^%#!@$%!!
Monday, 17 December 2012
Flexilize the unexpected
Now in delfi orchard drinking starbucks coffee hahahs its like the 101 time im drinking the same flavour TOFFEE NUT LATTE. Celebrated shawns birthday 2days ago?:) hahas so sorry sharon for ruining the surprise><><!! Haiz will punish myself to instra less now.thanks sharon for planning such an awesome party for him :). im sure the guest enjoyed it as well. It was awkward at first when foreign people friends of shawn started coming in the room, i looked at jon and jon look at me that type? Weird~. Yeah but things got better when the star appeared hahas with that we gambled blackjack and taiti as well, im nt sure if its just me but gambling to a certain extent brigs people closet?? LOL cause eveyone has common aim to win money i guess.xD dinner time hit, gambling stopped and somehow we got back to awkward mode?? Haahahs anw had a rather gd dinner at din tai fug. Call me a hermit crab but it was the first time i ate there xD following that i had to return hhome after cake cutting, FUCK i wanted to play the drinking game! But dad was pmsing over the phone. Anw it was pretty awesome that day HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY BRO! Hahahs how long has it been? Near one year since we became buds in mp. You have been awesome and great all along but yeah thats as good as it gets xD hahahs jkjk. Anw bro theres been a tons of memories we've shared and im grateful for that :) cheers mate may your life be ever brighter :))
Wednesday, 12 December 2012
3years
Been watching this china show called ai qing bao wei zhan.
you can search it on pps app, pretty sure this chinese is correct, hahahs its a pretty darn nice reality show, they invite couples to bring the problems to the stage and helps solves them, was watching it last night and shit got real.
The latest episode showing a guy not willing to let his girlfriend go just cause he did not know what he would do without her on top of that he would harm himself to keep her by his side. Last night i was like in my brain'come on dude your a freaking man, get over it she doesn't love you anymore'. He mentioned'he couldn't stand being single and he was really at a loss.' most probably the guy has some mental problem not cause he cant get over the girl but the aspect that he mutilates himself to keep her from breaking up with him, the ending well you have to see for yourself. on a side note maybe the girl means the world to him thus his behavior? :)
Main point was it hit me like how did i manage to be single for 3 years, and i only knew of it whens someone reminded me some days back. If i was that guy prob would have shot myself while doing gaurd duty. hahahs NOT! ANWS realized i have much to be thankful for, friends and family have always been (i dunnoe why so chim) but they have really been the building blocks of my simple life. Its good to be thankful i feel, there should be a 'gawd im thankful for you' day hahahs more offs from army xD Anw yeah kamsahamida peeps:)!
Cause i have felt this before like though you know the meaning of treasure your loved ones before they are gone, i still do it, i see my friends do it, i see people around me do it. I'm not generalizing but it leads me to think maybe this is one of humans biggest weakness?Maybe maturity and constant reminder of the above phrase are the best medicine for this weakness:) yeah time to hit some cardio >:)) till next time.
you can search it on pps app, pretty sure this chinese is correct, hahahs its a pretty darn nice reality show, they invite couples to bring the problems to the stage and helps solves them, was watching it last night and shit got real.
The latest episode showing a guy not willing to let his girlfriend go just cause he did not know what he would do without her on top of that he would harm himself to keep her by his side. Last night i was like in my brain'come on dude your a freaking man, get over it she doesn't love you anymore'. He mentioned'he couldn't stand being single and he was really at a loss.' most probably the guy has some mental problem not cause he cant get over the girl but the aspect that he mutilates himself to keep her from breaking up with him, the ending well you have to see for yourself. on a side note maybe the girl means the world to him thus his behavior? :)
Main point was it hit me like how did i manage to be single for 3 years, and i only knew of it whens someone reminded me some days back. If i was that guy prob would have shot myself while doing gaurd duty. hahahs NOT! ANWS realized i have much to be thankful for, friends and family have always been (i dunnoe why so chim) but they have really been the building blocks of my simple life. Its good to be thankful i feel, there should be a 'gawd im thankful for you' day hahahs more offs from army xD Anw yeah kamsahamida peeps:)!
Cause i have felt this before like though you know the meaning of treasure your loved ones before they are gone, i still do it, i see my friends do it, i see people around me do it. I'm not generalizing but it leads me to think maybe this is one of humans biggest weakness?Maybe maturity and constant reminder of the above phrase are the best medicine for this weakness:) yeah time to hit some cardio >:)) till next time.
Tuesday, 11 December 2012
created another blog cause lost the other one password and kinda wanna change the name of blog so yeah:)
anyway here goes hahahs had a hectic past few days, ops jumbo gaurduty wrapping up operation blitz jap class, fail song composing all these from previous saturday 12 am up till now hahahs FINALLY I AM ON OFF
reality has settled in, THE DECEMBER BATCH HAS ORDED!!><
frankly, already knew they were gonna ord like long ago, but shit just got real when i went to camp on monday and all that faced me were empty cupboards(minsun prob doing admin) whose owners were part of my reasons why i could look forward to camp.
I thought those scenes in the movies like memories flashing back in your head was unreal but gawd i was wrong, i could literally imagine the memories with each single person reacting in the bunk that day, definately my heart felt something..
Those were the people i slept with(not literally) ate with spent 3/4 of my days with.
People come and go, but what army has thought me to learn was yeah the phrase is true, you miss the memories, you miss every shit yall do but ultimately, all of us have to move on with our lives, right?thats why i shall strive to make even greater memories with my present batch and my juniors(but my platoon aint no junior senior shit-3-)
I was chatting with shuncong the other day and he reminded me i spent one freaking year with them, we might have our differences but come to think of it it might be cause of these differences that made us closer to each other?i mean one year man.. it still feels so surreal.
BUT HERES WISHING THESE SLUTS ALL THE BEST:) thanks for your tolerance and patience all these while i still am grateful for every memory yall have tattooed me with:)
freaking bought a skipping rope HAHAHS 12 bucks freak but no regrets, for my abs money is not a problem (but no lipo) hahas shall leave for now will prob blog again soon hahas till next time.
anyway here goes hahahs had a hectic past few days, ops jumbo gaurduty wrapping up operation blitz jap class, fail song composing all these from previous saturday 12 am up till now hahahs FINALLY I AM ON OFF
reality has settled in, THE DECEMBER BATCH HAS ORDED!!><
frankly, already knew they were gonna ord like long ago, but shit just got real when i went to camp on monday and all that faced me were empty cupboards(minsun prob doing admin) whose owners were part of my reasons why i could look forward to camp.
I thought those scenes in the movies like memories flashing back in your head was unreal but gawd i was wrong, i could literally imagine the memories with each single person reacting in the bunk that day, definately my heart felt something..
Those were the people i slept with(not literally) ate with spent 3/4 of my days with.
People come and go, but what army has thought me to learn was yeah the phrase is true, you miss the memories, you miss every shit yall do but ultimately, all of us have to move on with our lives, right?thats why i shall strive to make even greater memories with my present batch and my juniors(but my platoon aint no junior senior shit-3-)
I was chatting with shuncong the other day and he reminded me i spent one freaking year with them, we might have our differences but come to think of it it might be cause of these differences that made us closer to each other?i mean one year man.. it still feels so surreal.
BUT HERES WISHING THESE SLUTS ALL THE BEST:) thanks for your tolerance and patience all these while i still am grateful for every memory yall have tattooed me with:)
freaking bought a skipping rope HAHAHS 12 bucks freak but no regrets, for my abs money is not a problem (but no lipo) hahas shall leave for now will prob blog again soon hahas till next time.
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