Its said the minute you see or meet someone, your 1st impression is made, and a judgement will be made about him or her. I hate it the most when people say 'don't judge me please', or even worse 'I wont judge anyone'. Are you really such a saint?
It got me wondering, why do we all need to judge, is it built in us? Why cant we live and accept each other ugly, beautiful, thin or fat. Even I confess, its so much more easier to talk to a beautiful lady compared to a fat one. Some say judging makes the world so much more uglier, horrible a place where its difficult to be who you are. We cant stop anyone from judging because even in its simplest form, such as buying a book just reading its summary.IS judging desyo? That's the simple hard reality of judging.
Maybe we should just stop focusing on this word judging, focus more on this word accepting, accept them for who they are inside and outside. Its hard, I cant do it myself, but to a certain extent I believe we can be much better accepting souls?:)
Maybe the world is made uglier by us judging, maybe the world is made much better by us accepting as well, you choose:)
Judging was never a bad thing, I guess it gives us humans another mean to gauge another human soul.
However its bad if you stem out acceptance based on your judgement.
#justsayingandranting :)
Friday, 29 March 2013
Wednesday, 27 March 2013
Do not read this post!
Hi, If your reading means I have succeeded in tricking you to read this :)
Just met up with Zhenyu and Shawn last night for a cheap quick dinner. It was good seeing us together like this again, with the exception of jonathan who hasn't ORD yet. Shawn is doing property course now, working hard studying and stuff while me and Zhenyu are like 'wake up in the morning feeling like peetdiddy' (Kesha song)
Then they asked me ' Darren how do you spend your day?'
' I wake up 10pm spend 1hr plus sending resume for job here and there then 12pm go eat lunch, watch my afternoon show till 2pm, take a nap, 4-5pm wake up research on civil or mech engineering course, 7pm mom comes home have diner.... and yeah it pains me to carry on.'
CAUSE ITS SO FREAKING UNPRODUCTIVE.
It suddenly dawned on me, if a mother can ask to her child.' You sure you like this man? Hes so childish, can you see a future with him?'
You know some work needs to be done. I don't blame the mom, but I thank her for those constructive feedback.(well not feedback but people tell me so yeah) You know some comments that fire you up? In an angry way and You feel like you could use it as a motivation? Well, I'm gonna use it well.
Cheers for those struggling to make a change in their lives :) Lets work hard for the future (y)<---thumbs up sign
Tuesday, 26 March 2013
Nil.
Must I come up with a post title???? How about Nil
Nil... hmmm word that is aka zero aka nothing aka nobody. Zilch!
ok random stuff about NIL REPLY. You know the type of feeling that, 'Is it so hard to reply, I look like a fking fool for rpelying'
hahahs when i create a group chat, is it just me but in a group chat..DOES ANYBODY GIVE A FUCK?!!?!? Not everyone but some people don't really reply? Or the convo goes on for a while then it dies.
EG: Planning a friend birthday.. RSVP! WHY CANT U FREAKING TYPE NO OR YES?!?! hahahas I'm not telling you to suck a dick while your typing right?!?! HAHAHS sorry just me and my angst, NO friendships or stuff were killed or thrown away during angst mode.
Anw yeah enough of the rant. Hmm just got a job at m1. Finished the interview in the morning and hopefully everything goes well. Not well also have to work hahas societal woes~ Yeah its gonna be interesting working with haoming and gunawan Real Interesting. CANT WAIT. So april gonna start, means FREE TIME! hahas other than that, been trying to incorporate workout and my reading into my 'busy' life style.
Time to hit starbucks!^.^Heres some random taiwan peektures! enjoy!
Monday, 25 March 2013
A thought and a feeling equates an action
Hey darlings~
Yes I am blogging again. Guess its pretty good therapy for the soul and reflection.
Still finding a job. I mean its FREAKING hard. (maybe I'm fussy) Anw it dawned on me that all my past jobs were from introduction and through friends and bosses except for the manhattan fish market. So yeah got a lot to be thankful for :)
Even a few of my friends that are commited to enjoy their ORD, are finding jobs as well. Asked them why suddenly wanna find job. The reason mainly was low on money and yeah I mean it gets boring. For me, its downright low on cash and the fact that its boring and you cant possibly spend money and not earn right? It's not rocket science.
If you ask me I kind of regretted quitting the job, a lot has been learnt from the incident as well. So i will suck it up and CONTINUE trying to chase the employment title!:) Have a pleasant night people.:)
Yes I am blogging again. Guess its pretty good therapy for the soul and reflection.
Still finding a job. I mean its FREAKING hard. (maybe I'm fussy) Anw it dawned on me that all my past jobs were from introduction and through friends and bosses except for the manhattan fish market. So yeah got a lot to be thankful for :)
Even a few of my friends that are commited to enjoy their ORD, are finding jobs as well. Asked them why suddenly wanna find job. The reason mainly was low on money and yeah I mean it gets boring. For me, its downright low on cash and the fact that its boring and you cant possibly spend money and not earn right? It's not rocket science.
If you ask me I kind of regretted quitting the job, a lot has been learnt from the incident as well. So i will suck it up and CONTINUE trying to chase the employment title!:) Have a pleasant night people.:)
Sunday, 24 March 2013
When the caterpillar thought it would die, it became a butterfly.
HELLO~
The unemployed talking here! yeah finding a new job now, I guess now the fire to get a job has been re-lighted. Hmm making a point to have more discipline within me, which I heard from somewhere, someone ' Discipline is doing things you know you have to do, even if you don't feel or want to do it.'
MMMM true that, just that yeah i hope I am consistent in making the change within me. Keeping these words in mind, TODAY I started to work out again .. GAWD has it been long. Plus studying a bit more diligently my Japanese because lessons are getting crazier. My trading books have been feeling a bit cold, so yeah tomorrow I will warm it up.
I guess I am finding myself on the track again, after ORDING AND GOING TAIWAN T^T. But hey all good things have to end. Feeling better as well, cause when you know you are back on track, there's a sort of feeling you get like your life is not wasting? Feels like a ray of hope. Okay I am getting too emotional here, anyways yeah EVERYONE have their struggles, so just hold on and keep going, cause when you think your a caterpillar about to die, the next moment you could be a butterfly :)
ON the lighter side
Are you like staring at your com? tabbing through facebook, youtube w/o really anything in mind to senselessly spend your night away?
HERE IS a link
http://watchgakinotsukai.blogspot.sg/
watch the no laughing game! Freaking funny! hahahs perfect for these kind of nights that you just want to nua away~ sleep smiling peeps!cheers :) ohs theres eng sub :)) HAVE A GOOD NIGHT
The unemployed talking here! yeah finding a new job now, I guess now the fire to get a job has been re-lighted. Hmm making a point to have more discipline within me, which I heard from somewhere, someone ' Discipline is doing things you know you have to do, even if you don't feel or want to do it.'
MMMM true that, just that yeah i hope I am consistent in making the change within me. Keeping these words in mind, TODAY I started to work out again .. GAWD has it been long. Plus studying a bit more diligently my Japanese because lessons are getting crazier. My trading books have been feeling a bit cold, so yeah tomorrow I will warm it up.
I guess I am finding myself on the track again, after ORDING AND GOING TAIWAN T^T. But hey all good things have to end. Feeling better as well, cause when you know you are back on track, there's a sort of feeling you get like your life is not wasting? Feels like a ray of hope. Okay I am getting too emotional here, anyways yeah EVERYONE have their struggles, so just hold on and keep going, cause when you think your a caterpillar about to die, the next moment you could be a butterfly :)
ON the lighter side
Are you like staring at your com? tabbing through facebook, youtube w/o really anything in mind to senselessly spend your night away?
HERE IS a link
http://watchgakinotsukai.blogspot.sg/
watch the no laughing game! Freaking funny! hahahs perfect for these kind of nights that you just want to nua away~ sleep smiling peeps!cheers :) ohs theres eng sub :)) HAVE A GOOD NIGHT
Wednesday, 20 March 2013
What I learnt from Mr march.
Hey it's been a while, it's been crazy and many shit loads has happened. I mean shit loads of good and bad stuff. That's why i guess its time to do some self reflection as a human being. During this month of march, many events happened. I just got back from Taiwan and Taiwan was really crazy and fun. First time going out overseas with friends, you know that pumping feeling where you feel good cause you got this damn feeling your like grown up and you can do ANYTHING you want overseas and just enjoy with your friends. Definitely missed Taiwan and really hope to go back there, cause wasted one day puking and shitting there due to food poisoning... fml right? Nopes gonna use LML love my life. To cut long story short, came back from Taiwan, got a job within next two days and worked for 2 days and I quitted.. why u might ask? Why quit a 1.8k job which for part time pay is kinda high?
Its not an excuse for me to quit so irresponsibly but the reason is because the hours are longer then they were and maybe deep inside I just felt awkward and not familiar (of course all new jobs would be like this)and worst of all I did not check if there was any OT pay. Just working two days in training, we are supposed to give 7 days notice however, if i work the rest of the seven day bt it would not mean anything because they would be training me for nothing right? I'm not sure what would happen but hope everything will turn out well.><
Really learnt that pre prep or pre pre prep is really important regardless whatever your doing, even if its the thing we hate to do the most or the last thing we ever want to do. Been pretty stressed over this quitting of job, immense guilt will follow and sometimes what seems as the easy way out, isn't actually the easiest way out. Mentally there is gonna be something called the conscience and sometimes I mean damn I really should grow so much more morally inside.Previous post keep fucking posting about building inside and in the end ended losing sight of that, Now i know why people say never forget the reason. To be a better man.
Really need to start voicing myself and opening myself up more in a positive way, and get out of this freaking!#@%@!@@ SHY culture shit. Always ask, never be afraid, damn these seems like basics of communication. Learning how to decide things morally and just being more responsible... Saying these things might give you a disgusting image of me. But hey that's the truth and really i just wanna be more open about it, in order for myself to admit it and hopefully change it to the best of my abilities. Maybe the next post i put up will be about the positive changes I have succeeded, nonetheless really hope april will be the month of change and thank you mr march, I'm gonna make the best use of you and likewise with every other month.
T.T.M(Thoughts to myself): Hope for the strength to make these changes happen and grow more responsible for the people and things I hold dear to.
Its not an excuse for me to quit so irresponsibly but the reason is because the hours are longer then they were and maybe deep inside I just felt awkward and not familiar (of course all new jobs would be like this)and worst of all I did not check if there was any OT pay. Just working two days in training, we are supposed to give 7 days notice however, if i work the rest of the seven day bt it would not mean anything because they would be training me for nothing right? I'm not sure what would happen but hope everything will turn out well.><
Really learnt that pre prep or pre pre prep is really important regardless whatever your doing, even if its the thing we hate to do the most or the last thing we ever want to do. Been pretty stressed over this quitting of job, immense guilt will follow and sometimes what seems as the easy way out, isn't actually the easiest way out. Mentally there is gonna be something called the conscience and sometimes I mean damn I really should grow so much more morally inside.Previous post keep fucking posting about building inside and in the end ended losing sight of that, Now i know why people say never forget the reason. To be a better man.
Really need to start voicing myself and opening myself up more in a positive way, and get out of this freaking!#@%@!@@ SHY culture shit. Always ask, never be afraid, damn these seems like basics of communication. Learning how to decide things morally and just being more responsible... Saying these things might give you a disgusting image of me. But hey that's the truth and really i just wanna be more open about it, in order for myself to admit it and hopefully change it to the best of my abilities. Maybe the next post i put up will be about the positive changes I have succeeded, nonetheless really hope april will be the month of change and thank you mr march, I'm gonna make the best use of you and likewise with every other month.
T.T.M(Thoughts to myself): Hope for the strength to make these changes happen and grow more responsible for the people and things I hold dear to.
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