Loneliness with Zest of regrets

Its been a pretty good past 2 weeks for me, operation in camp is starting to roll in. Holidays are kinda over, waiting for our next bestest friend MR CHINESE NEW YEAR. AND ORD!! But yeah ain't gonna think too much about it or its gonna feel longer.:) Just booked tickets to Taiwan flight for march! You think planning an outing is hard? Try plan the flights ALONE and book it whilst calling your friends to update them on 2 fucking phones, yeah I'm a proud fucker. (not complaining just boasting :P)

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Workouts has been average so far these past 2 weeks, trying to push my game. Feels like I'm at a plateau right now. Probably going to start to incorporate interval training into the workout.D: Yes, it sucks. But what ain't gonna challenge you ain't gonna change you right?:) DAMN, the temptation to buy protein has been in my mind. Thank god its expensive cause that's the pushing factor for that idea to fuck off from my brain so yeah it is also partly why i decided to push more in workouts, get out of comfort zone plan  \m/ ^^ \m/


Today was one of the days after my medical appointment, stayed home. Yes stay home, boring eh. When you stay home, nothing much to do, shit starts to pop up in your head. Loneliness was what came up, being alone really makes one fear loneliness, and who doesn't? I guess its human nature to want to feel loved popular and bundled in warmth. Loneliness seems to be the enemy of that. But what should i have done to shoot loneliness in the head? Order a girl on ebay or buy a book to enlighten me on amazon?

Yeah and of course some decisions I regretted in life seems to surface up. Don't you sometimes feel that some decisions you chose could have changed a huge part of your life, probably make you less lonely? And its like a baggage that even regardless of time, still comes back to 'tease' you. I'm not gonna welcome this baggage with open arms but much as my heartaches with numbness when it comes back, I'm trying to learn from these regrets and hopefully less regrets in life will be made.

Conclusion: loneliness comes along with a zest of regrets(in relationships) that helps to remind us of our mistakes and not repeat them, much as we fear it, we cant deny that it does actually helps us to be stronger in our future and maybe a little less lonely next time.